oh dear

aint this the truth. Awesome workout yesterday.. dead sore today!!!

No pain no gain :-)

ok here they are

alright now hold onto your breakfast. here is my pics. I am posting them as well it is my blog and I feel I need to keep accountability and I read my blog daily to revisit thoughts etc. Shit maybe someone will find some inspiration in them and see changes too :-) I apologise in advance for the boob shot from today but I was trying to remember to do it as I was sorting out the girls this morning before gym. I wanted to do the next lot in the same shirt. I will do it for the next ones in a fortnight.

I have posted the last ones again and these ones. Not quite a fortnight. Will do measurements on Monday again. I know they are not as close etc and different angles but you still see clearly and the camera doesn't lie :-)

 21/2/2012                                                          10/05/2012

I am loving that I am losing my baby tummy. Loving the hips are slimming down nicely. Loving that my thighs now have a gap between them almost. I love that although they still touch they don't rub.. Does that make sense????

Anyway here they are :-)

You are awesome!

ok so I woke this morning and stripped down to my knickers and  pink bed bra.. Took some progress shots. I hadn't taken any in a fortnight!!! Wowsers!!!!1 I am liking what I see. I don't know if I will post them on here as the pic is pretty boobie as it is my bed bra lol. But so much difference since last ones! So excited to see progress

Today I had an awesome session with Jac doing a stair circuit. FARK I am exhausted! I have been wanting to get out of my comfort zone a bit lately and shit that did it!!! Stair sprints and then a jog down the path back to the bottom, 1 minute of tricep dips and push ups on the park bench. Started with 5 laps of the steps and then worked down to one. Was so good. Tried my hardest to jog most of it and really keep working hard. There was no problem with that as I worked my arse off. The tricep dips got harder and push ups too as we go to the 3 rd set.  I aimed to do 15 tricep dips and 12 push ups. I really feel it now! Felt amazing afterwards. have really missed that burn! Might pack a weight in the car and do some swing squat thingys with it too next time. Bit more of a circuit. Loved it!

I kept saying this over and over when it was hard to keep my arse moving. I felt like dying towards the end! Woot!!!

Day 3- Wednesday

I saw this on Million Dollar Baby Fitness Fb page and I love it.

Today is the day I did legs and butt however I thought about it a bit more than that later.

I kept thinking what do I want to start, give up or make a difference with from today.

As I drove to Rutherford to do our groceries I thought about it. Taking in our beautiful scenery. As I was stuck in traffic on our way home and observing the most gorgeous sunset I thought about it.

So from when I stepped off at about 3 to getting home at about 530ish I am still none the wiser as to what it is.

I think though that Today is the day I will put to bed any issues I have with my body. I will embrace it, enjoy clean eating, exercising and just live life. I found this one

So very true. If I keep hating on my body it is going to be hard to look after it. Sure I have slight stretch marks on my belly but hey they are character hey, besides my daughter's gave me those (Bitches lol KIDDING). My arse, waist, hips and thighs are shrinking. I am getting some killer curves and I just need to embrace this. It will happen. As Ashy says, it is a marathon not a sprint. It won't happen quickly but it will happen. Enjoy that I am changing and love the new me. Leave the old me..... the grumpy, depressive, unhappy, self loathing Wendi behind. 

I am a lot more fun now. I get active with Eleanor outside, I dance with Lucille and be more encouraging to get her playing more... and walking. Andrew sees a less snappy bitchy Wendi... though sometimes it is my wifey duties and his stubbornness that brings the grumpy Wendi out lol. But you know what I love the changes in me. I am looking in the mirror and seeing improvements to my body shape and I love it. But I love that things don't stress me out like they used. I think I finally think more about me then I have in the last 4ish years. I am still the same Wendi who is there for anyone and lends an ear when needed, will give you the shirt of my back even if it is bloody freezing and I need it too! lol But you know what I mean. I am still caring and all those similar qualities but I guess I just look after me more.

Anyway enough dribble.

Food today;

I can't even remember what I had. Will need to check the planner on the fridge. .. oh wait I had a mountain bread wrap with 2 boiled eggs sliced up, rocket and baby spinach, tsp of Tomato Chutney and 50gms of lean ham. (yes I know it is not a clean food and is processed but I love my Deli ham and I won't give that up just yet. I am having considerably less than I would normally but yes still have it) Snack is banana. Lunch was just 100gm roast chicken meat. Didn't any salad or veg. Arvo snack was some raw mixed nuts (Brazil nuts, walnuts, almonds and peanuts) Dinner was the yummiest steak I have had in oh my god sooooooo long. Andrew loves Blade Steak and I don't. It is so damn tough!!! No matter how you cook it. I love my steak medium. Anyway Woolies had Scotch Fillet on sale. Holy Jesus it was so good. So tender and oh it was just great!!!!!! I am buying it from now on. Will buy blade for Andrew and scotch fillet for me. Soooo good!!!! Had side salad with it.

Looking forward to getting a great cardio session done with Jac tomorrow. Will be really great! Stair sprints, tricep dips, pushups, lunges, step ups. Running from the gym to the steps and back.

My lovely friend Nicky that I met here goes to a group PT class on Wednesdays and I am thinking I might join. Just to mix it a bit. I did meet Eleanor's school friend Chloe's mum yesterday and I am sure she does boxing on Mondays so might do that too! Need to mix it a bit as I feel I am needing a bit more intensity in my routines. See how I go.

Anyway nighty night peeps. Sweet dreams x

Day 2- Tuesday

I see and hear so many times on different health eating sites and in my own weightloss journey..."ooh don't worry if you have eaten that, you can just burn it by exercising" or "you can have that biscuit, you can just burn it off".  Um I don't want to flog my body to remove food I have just eaten. I want to strengthen my body, and tone and lose the weight I am already carrying. Thankfully it doesn't relate much in my life as I don't eat crap or very rarely so I don't need to use that line, but I see it everywhere on FB. I love my exercise. I don't want to hate it because it is a flogging tool for being naughty in my diet!

Today I have been clean in my eating, ooh except a hot choccie tonight. ran out of Protowhey so had to use the Cadbury's Drinking Chocolate. Was delicious but couldn't really enjoy it knowing I was having milk and the sugar content in the hot chocolate.
breakfast was 2 boiled eggs on slice rye, with spinach and rocket, lunch was left over Mexican pie from last night. Dinner was chicken and salad. Snacks banana and some nuts, arvo snack some egg whites.

Drank over 3 litres of water!!! Thankfully as my session today was hard.

Exercise was arms, chest and back today.

Warm up with 20 mins crdio on treadmill. Ran at 9km for 1 min30  today!! Maintained most of time 6.5kmh with incline 1. had running bursts in between but dropped back to no lower than 6.5kmh

Tricep extension with 7.5kg weight 3 x 8reps
Tricep dips 3 x 8
Pushups 3 x 8 on knees extended
Bicep curls 3 x 21s (7 top half, 7 lower half, 7 full lift) 7 kg each hand
back 3 x 8 7kg each hand
front raises 3 x 8 7kg each hand
2 x 1min planks (went over on each but aimed for 1 min)
did a few other little things in the Michelle Bridges dvd but this was main exercises.

burnt 472 calories.

Looking forward to tomorrow as it is legs again.

can't wait to get back to Townsville and do sessions with Toni. She will smash me. Can't wait to show her how far my cardio and strength has come. And also to show the changes in my body. Not sure if I will see her before September at Hayley and James's wedding but by then I will be definitely in the 80s!!!! So can't wait!!

oooh Biggest Loser ended tonight. What will I watch now???? Glad Margie won. She was a bitch in the beginning and I hater her but she has grown up a lot and is no longer that spiteful woman! Awesome result. Only beat Alex by a bee's dick. She looks great too.

Anyway nighty night xx

Who do you want to be?

I saw this and thought hmmmm who do I want to be???

Well let me tell you. I want to be;

• happy and content
• fit and energised
• making healthy choices in life 99% of the time... (come on everyone is allowed wine and some Cactus Jacks once in a while lol)
• a great role model for our daughters, showing them the right way to eat and how to enjoy an active lifestyle
• Sexy and confident in my skin- not just externally but internally also.
• wearing clothes that look great on and are stylish - not wearing clothes just because they fit

Each day I am taking bigger steps towards this and I can see it. I visited a friend who lives around the corner. Normally I would drive, but popped Eleanor on her bike and as I still had my sneakers on I walked around. We chased each other there. Was so much fun. I would normally not have the energy to do this but I loved it! Eleanor loved it too. Going to take her to the park more so she can ride and be outdoors more. Lucille is getting her walking on, still slow and steady and only a few steps at a time but I am looking forward to when she is more active and can walk. I miss my baby terribly but she gets frustrated that she can't be chasing us so to have her join in our fun would be awesome. I carry her and chase Eleanor but it would be so nice to have her chasing me and I chasing her.

I can't wait to wear clothes that fit so nicely and are stylish. To no longer have to walk into stores like Autograph and the bigger sized stores will be heaven. I need to go back to work just to be able to afford the new clothes I need!!!

I love the change in my eating. I love trying to find healthier food options and changing the ingredients in my tried and tested meals. I have found a yummy recipe for some protein biscuits. Can't wait to try them tomorrow and I will then post the recipe if they are decent lol and a pic of course

Here's to reinventing Wendi :-)

Day 1- Monday

I have woken today with an amazing outlook and determination. I really am going to chase those goals this week. I am aiming to get close to double digits as I can!!

I weighed in and ok yes it was 200gms... 105.4kg It is a loss and I am grateful that it was not a gain. The big deal is that I have lost 5cm of my hips!!!! WOOOT!!! I am stoked. So so stoked! I lost 2cms of my thighs and 1cm off my waist and almost 1cm off my bust! I've done a lot of lower body work so that could be why it was a big deal on hips. I really need to tackle arms and can't wait until my PT gets back from holidays and does me a program. I will do my Michelle Bridges Dvd tomorrow with arms. 

I had a glass of lemon water when I woke to get the digestive system moving.

A banana and then I am off to the gym. I drink Xtend whilst I'm doing my workout. Feel that it made a huge difference with muscle soreness after Saturday's session! Here is a link to a review done on Xtend for those who don't use it and curious about it.

http://thesupplementden.com.au/shop/supplements/amino-acids/xtend-scivation

1 hour later and 400calories burnt- Assisted squats killed today!!! 20kg ones are a bitch!!! lol Protowhey shake straight after

Breakfast was a slice of Burgen Rye toast, 2 poached eggs, Rocket and baby spinach. No mid morning snack due to session finishing at 1030 and having my big breakfast then

Lunch will be left over Mexican Pie with steamed vegies.

arvo snack will be 10 almonds

Dinner- hmmm not sure yet. Trying to work out weekly meal plan now for dinners. I have steak so I would say Steak and steamed veg.

Will have protowhey hot choc before bed.

As my right thigh is feeling a bit sore due to corking it a bit doing some fit ball sit ups I will go for a light walk this arvo to stretch it out a bit. See how it goes. No legs work until Wednesday. Arms tomorrow so should be ok. Will pay to prob rest it a bit and do some stretches. See how we go.

Commitment

When we focus on something in life whether it be to lose weight, to get fit, to get out of debt, to finish a course, to start a course, to get out of the rental cycle, Whatever it is, it is not going to happen without 100% commitment.

This past week I have been committed in my exercise. I have given 100% of myself, in my food I've given 90% of myself.

Food is where I have lost focus. Not for any reason. Not because it is hard as it isn't. I love eating healthy and don't find it challenging at all. But let's be honest eating crappy without any thought is so much easier. When we are tired or exhausted like I have been for the past few days it is easier to eat something naughty then take the time to get something a bit healthier. I know that after my fabulous week last week I am not expecting any miracles! And I am pissed at myself for this. I am pissed that I have ruined some fabulous progress.

Ok now that is said and done. Where do we go from here?? Do we say "You know what fuck it. I am going to continue on this path as it is the easier path" as your foot is hovering in the air for a step forward. OR Do we say "No" Stomp our foot back down and say "Brakes on. Enough is enough???!!"

So I am stamping my foot beside the other and saying enough. Stop doing this. Stop "allowing" yourself to have excuses for bad eating. Moving forward 100% determined with full commitment!

So this week I commit to;

• eating 5 meals daily that are 100% clean
• exercising 6 days with full intensity and with nothing left in the tank and ensuring a minimum 500 calories are burnt on my cardio days if not every day!
• stamping excuses out of my mind before they have a chance to set in and do damage
• not allowing others to influence the way my day is shaped (except of course the kidlets.. the unpredictable buggers)
• drinking my 2+ litres of water daily
• to take all my supplements as required
• to be in bed daily no later than 9pm (I'm late tonight already! oh wait starting tomorrow..phew lol) 

I will record a daily blog entry to tackle any issues that may be troubling me to ensure they do not carry on to the next day and to also post my food choices and exercise so that I can be held accountable.

So in saying that good night, sweet dreams. See you this bad week of mine... and I look forward to seeing a brand new week and Wendi in the morning

Blah

I am seriously feeling really blah. Today I woke up in a bad funk. Just really feeling.... um.... anxious I think the word is I am looking for.... hmmm defeated may be another. Overwhelmed.... that is it. Overwhelmed.. I feel overwhelmed.

I don't know why as I am not thinking anything in particular. maybe it is the uncertainty of where our future lies at the end of the year... maybe as to whether I will be returning to Townsville and lose my position with Centrelink as I am not sure I will get transferred into anywhere else. Overwhelmed that although I have lost 11kgs I still have 25ish to go.

I don't know what it is but I have some goals set and I am going to achieve them. This motivational sums it up brilliantly. I am a woman of my word and I will make it happen.

I can do this. I know I can. My vow to myself is not to use the words "CAN'T or CAN NOT" I can and will do this!

Grrrr

On the Ashy Forum there is posts about girls being criticised by friends for changing their eating and that clean eating is extreme etc etc.

This makes me mad as clean eating is the way we are meant to eat. We are so full of convenience food and over processed crap these days that we really need to take a step back and get back to basics. I love the eating I do now. Sure it is not 100% clean as I still love my Mocona Latte Sticks and sugar and milk. Sure I love butter on my Rye toast still. Sure I have BBQ sauce. But my veg and meat intake has increased considerably.

I have for breakfast either a protein smoothie OR oats with banana and Almond Milk OR 2 poached eggs on a slice of Rye, with baby spinach and rocket and mushrooms
Lunch is chicken with salad or steamed greens generally.
Dinner can be protein and salad or veg, can have some lean mince made into a clean lasagna or Mexican Pie. Or I have chicken kebabs and salad and veg. You are only limited by your imagination.  The aim is to be as clean and as least processed as possible. You still eat 5 times a day, 3 main meals with breakfast being the biggest and then 2 snacks.

Maybe my exercise might seem extreme..... Um yes an 11 km walk was a bit longer than usual but it was great!!!!

No one has been negative to me about what I am doing but then I guess apart from on here and my close friends, they are the only ones who know what I am doing. Fb peeps know I am losing weight etc but I don't know.. maybe if I was in the Call Centre and was chatting daily to people someone would have  a comment... who knows... who cares. I am doing this for me and what people's opinions are of it is really irrelevant. Still doesn't give me confidence to post my pics on Asy's Site though. Just too much access to news feed and others seeing it I am afraid :-(
I've seen what people have commented on other girls pics. Nasty nasty people out there. So just in here I will do it. My own little environment. lol