M.I.A!!

ok ok ok I know I have been so slack posting. I have been so tired lately and this dreaded damn cold has kept me down. I've lost focus slightly and just feel blah... why spread that negativity?!?!?! Plus I've not been on the computer really properly for a while and just access Fb on my mobile...

Well I decided to pick my arse up and get on with it... yes I am still not 100% but if I wait until I am then I am not going to get anywhere. I have about 20kgs I still want to lose and I want them gone quickly! Well when I say quickly I mean before the end of the year...

So I decided to swap my mindset... think that I feel fantastic no matter how poo I feel...

I have worked out every day since Wednesday and I feel for good for it! A rest day of course on Sunday. I have tightened up my diet 100% and I will be moving forward.... I love my new program and managed to do it at least 2 times last week... 1 day behind but that is ok.. Returned to gym today (Monday) and all set to do my 3 days.. I can feel the burn in my arms still and I love it!!! oh and the single leg dead lifts with dumbbells HOLY SHITE!!!! my glutes and hamstrings are feeling it! oh and  am pushing out planks to try and get my core back up.. I am only managing 30-40secs and that is dismal compared to where I got :-( that's ok. I'll get there again... I wish though that I wasn't losing my boobs at a rapid rate :-( Andrew reckons I'll be in training bras soon ha ha ha but I know it won't get to that stage.... I HOPE!!!! I'll bloody well cry that is for sure..

I weighed in this morning at 102.3kg so I am pleased!!!!! Now to get to doubles by Monday!! Can be done and will be done :-)

Happy Monday peeps!!!

ooh made the yummiest Banana Muffins from this link!! Soooo good.. Even Eleanor loved them!!! And she is fussy!!!! Ok now I left out the salt, almonds as didn't have any and used Natvia instead of normal sugar. I want to make them with the Cocoa next time as I had none.

The website has some fabulous recipes..

My Play list

ok I thought I had posted my playlist previously but I can't seem to find it so here is my iPod playlist.. or shit list as Andrew calls it ha ha ha. We have very differing tastes in music. He is very old school whereas I like everything and anything but especially my hip hop, RnB, pop, techno dance.. ok anything!!!! ha ha

This is what I listen to. Some songs I skip over as I have to update it a bit but most of it is played through :-)

I Gotta Feeling Black Eyed Peas
Meet Me Halfway (Radio Edit) The Black Eyed Peas
Lonely Boy The Black Keys
Rock the Boat (feat. Pitbull, Dragonfly & Fatman Scoop) [Radio Edit] Bob Sinclar
Shake That (Remix) Bobby Creekwater, Eminem, Nate Dogg & Obie Trice
Grenade Bruno Mars
Jai Ho! (as made famous by A. R. Rahman & Pussycat Dolls) Cardio Workout Crew
Turn Up the Music Chris Brown
Not Myself Tonight Christina Aguilera
Little Bad Girl (feat. Taio Cruz & Ludacris) David Guetta
One Love (feat. Estelle) David Guetta
Where Them Girls At (feat. Nicki Minaj & Flo Rida) David Guetta
Titanium (feat. Sia) David Guetta & Sia
Love Don't Let Me Go (Walking Away) (Original Mix) David Guetta & The Egg
Naked Dev & Enrique Iglesias
I Like How It Feels (feat. Pitbull, & The WAV.s) Enrique Iglesias
I Like It Enrique Iglesias
Tonight (I'm Lovin' You) [feat. Ludacris & DJ Frank E] Enrique Iglesias
Dirty Dancer Enrique Iglesias & Usher
Good Feeling Flo Rida
Turn Around (5,4,3,2,1) Flo Rida
Wild Ones (feat. Sia) Flo Rida
Somebody That I Used to Know (feat. Kimbra) Gotye
Don't Worry Be Happy Guy Sebastian
Ass Back Home (feat. Neon Hitch) Gym Class Heroes
Get It Havana Brown
The Best Thing Hook 'n' Sling
Shot Caller Ian Carey
Dance Again (feat. Pitbull) Jennifer Lopez
On the Floor (feat. Pitbull) Jennifer Lopez
Up / Down Jessica Mauboy
Inescapable Jessica Mauboy
Boom Boom Justice Crew
I Kissed a Girl Katy Perry
Telephone Lady GaGa & Beyoncé
Party Rock Anthem (feat. Lauren Bennet & GoonRock) LMFAO
Give Me All Your Luvin' (feat. Nicki Minaj & M.I.A.) Madonna
Revolver (One Love Remix) Madonna
Miles Away (Live) Madonna
Moves Like Jagger (feat. Christina Aguilera) Maroon 5
Brother Matt Corby
Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough (Single Version) Michael Jackson
Closer Ne-Yo
Tonight Is the Night Outasight
Blow Me (One Last Kiss) P!nk
Back In Time (From "Men In Black III") Pitbull
Give Me Everything (feat. Ne-Yo, Afrojack & Nayer) Pitbull
Hey Baby (Drop It to the Floor) [feat. T-Pain] Pitbull
I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho) [Radio Edit] Pitbull
International Love (feat. Chris Brown) Pitbull
Throw Your Hands Up (Dancar Kuduro) [feat. Pitbull & Lucenzo] Qwote
I Like That Richard Vission, Static Revenger & Luciana
Crazy Ricki-Lee
Do It Like That Ricki-Lee
Hear No, See No, Speak No (Radio Edit) Ricki-Lee
Only Girl (In the World) Rihanna
Where Have You Been Rihanna
How We Do (Party) Rita Ora
Touch Me Rui Silva & Cassandra
Music Won't Break Your Heart Stan Walker
Troublemaker Taio Cruz
Jumpstart These Kids Wear Crowns
Morning After Dark (feat. Nelly Furtado & SoShy) Timbaland
Scream (feat. Keri Hilson & Nicole Scherzinger) Timbaland
The Way I Are Timbaland featuring Keri Hilson & D.O.E.
Give It to Me Timbaland featuring Nelly Furtado & Justin Timberlake
Can You Feel It Timomatic
If Looks Could Kill Timomatic
Set It Off Timomatic
Wild Thing Tone-Loc
Funky Cold Medina Tone-Loc
DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love (feat. Pitbull) Usher
More Usher
Scream Usher
Play That Funky Music Wild Cherry
Some oldies in there but mostly new stuff :-)

Hope it gives you some ideas to update and add to your lists :-)

Out with the old and in with the new

So over the last fortnight or so I would say my positivity and motivation has lacked. And boy has it ever.

Combine the girls being sick, me doing the detox, the negativity on the Ashy forum and my inability to get to the gym I feel deflated.

I really feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I feel as if I am never going to my after pic! I feel as I am kidding myself to think that I deserve to be lighter and have a banging body in Size 14ish clothes. I know I know this is a defeatist (is that a word???) attitude but I can't help it.

Anyway. I posted on FB about someone killing me now.... a bit dramatic I know but seriously my head hurts, the girls are trying my patience (not their fault they are sick) but I am just over it... Oh and it is soooooo bloody cold! My friend Kellie posted about how she sees me as a strong woman and I have achieved so much and I should know how much determination and courage I have in me. It really was the wake up call to stop feeling sorry for myself! The arse kicking I needed so to speak. Thanks Kel!!!!

So after a read through of my motivational posts and finding some Vin Diesel pics I am doing ok. I won't say I am better as I still feel terrible but my mental attitude is back. I have lost 13.4kgs!!!! That is something I should be proud of. That is losing a Lucy and a bit :-) I do feel better for it.

So I found some of my fave motivational pics at the moment and thought I'd post them to share. Ooh and went over some pics of Andreia-Brazier. She is just so hot! She is a bit too toned but I love it. She looks nice. Not the exact shape I would love but I want to be really toned and fit. If you don't know who she is click on the link. She is so nice. Even her out of comp pics were she is not so cut she is hot!!!

Anyway here are the pics. Ooh and I included one of Andreia just in case you couldn't get link to open :-)

There are so many more and I will add more later. But for now I must lay down again :-)

Before and Afters

My friend Fiona gave me a link to an inspirational lady that I had seen preciously on FB however when I watched it this time round something finally connected with the video. Here it is here. Jill Birth. An amazing inspirational woman!!!!

She talks about having 20 before pics but never an after pic. I thought to myself. OMG that is so me. I haven't got many before pics so to speak but I have so many "before" moments. The "I am starting this weight loss thingy" ARGH!!!!! So many of those!!!!!

I totally agree. I want my after pic. This has lit a renewed fire in my belly. I am going to get there! I have my progress pics this time so I will certainly have an awesome after pic to post!!!

Disgusted at Human Nature

ok so I have posted before about Human nature and I am going to go back onto that topic for a moment.

I have mentioned before that I got the Clean Eating Guidelines from Ashy Bines and I really do thank her for the information. Best $39 I have ever spent. (normally $69 but I got it in the Valentine's Special) Anyway I have always known not to eat crap food, drink soft drinks etc but I guess like most people didn't fully understand the full reasoning behind it only that they were bad. Since buying the guidelines I have learnt so much and really looked into Clean Eating benefits etc. I try to make more informed choices about the food I eat and also have started to try buying organic where ever possible. (budget allowing on one wage and living in expensive Singleton!) I now have an understanding how we need a balance of protein, carbs, veg and fruit. It really is getting back to basics and eating how our grand parents would have eaten I guess. In those days there were no tim tams, Maccas, fatty fried foods and minimal if any processed food. We have a lot to learn these days that is for sure!!!
Now the Clean Eating guidelines, yes, while they may seem basic to some and freely available on the net via other sites, it wasn't until I stumbled on Ashy Bines Bikini Body Challenge that I really knew where to start researching or even what Clean Eating was. Then you add access to her private forum and you are really set. I've met some lovely ladies in there and find it very encouraging to see other success stories, get some new recipes and also learn about benefits of certain foods I'd have not even considered eg Coconut Oil. This link provides some info on the benefits if you are curious. It really is an awesome oil to use!!! mmmmmm mushrooms cooked in coconut oil, or Moroccan Chicken!!!

Coconut oil benefits

The guidelines Ashy provides are just that and you suit them to yourself. For example, Ashy and a lot of the girls on the forum are big advocates of eating Kangaroo meat. Well hell no. I am not going to eat Skippy!!!! The thought of road kill just puts me off! NO I am not naive and I do know that this is not the meat they use but it is the image I see. When I think of eating beef I see the cows in those green lush farms I drive past regularly and same with lamb. I have taken Kangaroo meat off the shelves at the supermarket, had it in my trolley and then gotten to the end of the fridge sections and put it back. I just can't do it. I don't care if it is high in protein, low in fat and the leanest meat known to human kind and I'd lose all my weight eating it.. I won't do it. I'm not going to make myself sick to the stomach doing it just because she says it is great. So I just adjust the guidelines to us.

Lately the forum has gone to shit and maybe that is where my mindset has hit a low. Seeing so much negativity daily just gets you down... I've started avoiding the forum due to this.  The group has blown out to 19000+ girls and on just a facebook page this makes it very hard to get to the information you want and ignore the crap that you don't need. You feel like you see the same questions over and over and have to scroll heaps to get to what interests you. This is a common complaint amongst users. Hence a new forum has been created and we are slowly being moved over. Hoorah! I am just waiting for my access details for this and then hopefully it will be a lot better.

Soooo where does the Human Nature come into it???? Hold on I am getting there :-)

There is a new Fb page created by ladies disgruntled at many issues to do with the Ashy Bines management, the guidelines, pricing etc. I am not referring to the issues they have as let's face it as customers we are entitled to get what we expect out of a product and if we feel it is falsely advertised then sure pursue those avenues.. Where my disgust comes from is that they have been making rude derogatory comments about her, getting pics off the net and putting nasty slogans on them etc. I find that so so rude. Stick to what the aim of the group is for and leave the school girl behaviour behind. Sure they have every right to feel hard done by, as they feel that have received terrible customer service... whatever it may be.... but don't start acting like bullies. If that is what they feel is happening from Admin's side then leave them to do it. Just makes the cause less credible when you see that crap going around. I have looked at the page and have observed that there are a few ladies on there who have dignity and respect for themselves and the cause but then there are others that I feel are stemming from an intense hatred of Ashy and that needs to be left out of it.

Now for the record I have not felt nor feel hard done by with my purchase. Sure I thought wow this is it???  2 PDFOk fair enough. But really the cost??? I've forked out more on the other programs and not ended up where I am right now. Each person is different I know but I am just thankful I found Ashy and am on my way to the best version of me! I have taken an interest in a lot of clean eating pages, brought the James Duigan books and really taken an interest in what is going in my mouth. (well except for the Max Brenner Italian Milk Chocolate Hot Chocolate I had on Friday!!!! Holy shit they are good. Like getting a melted block of chocolate and drinking it. So heavenly!!!! Um mah indeed but I don't care. One is allowed to splurge every so often ha ha ha) I guess I am not expecting nor do I require the responses from Ashy that many want nor had any of the experiences that others have had. So it is not for me to say that they are "haters" or anything of the like. I just find that when you get a bunch of girls together who are unhappy about something a big massive bitch mentality comes into play and the pack joins forces. It really is sickening to see. Do we really unite in such circumstances for the better or do we become attracted to the drama and therefore join the cause of something that really does not affect us or had any impact on us previously??? Out of all the drama going around and being caused, does everyone have a legitimate issue or are they jumping on the bandwagon due to the drama??? Is it bringing up issues that didn't exist before but do now for them? There are people commenting about it all who have not even brought the plan nor considered buying it but just jumping in on the drama. Anyway I for one am staying away and not joining in, hence why I have not mentioned the FB page. I will steer clear of the negativity going around on the forum and on FB in general. I have many pages that I like to visit that is full of daily advice, positivity and no nasty comments. I've got my $39 worth so I am grateful for that.

Another complaint for the group is that Ashy responds with "Google it" to a lot of questions. Ok so maybe this is not the sound nutritional advice that had been offered but I would rather Google something to see the benefits etc for myself then someone tell me that I should eat it, use it, drink it etc. I remember seeing a response a while ago by Ashy when someone questioned her and it was something like "Google it so you know what you are putting in your body. Because it works for me doesn't mean it will for you" Something along those lines anyway.... So true. Not Googling would be silly not to see what benefits or detriment it has to your body. Everyone raved about Fish Oil and it was a suggested supplement that Ashy recommended. I wanted to know why to take them as there is so much marketing out there about these wonder tablets and to be honest I've forked out enough money for things!!! So I googled it and now I know so I take them. here is a link if you are curious.
Fish Oil Same with L carnitine and L Glutamine.... I may have put crap food in my body for years but when it comes to vitamins and medicines etc that I know nothing about well I will check to see what they do and why we need them etc.

I am not a Ashy kiss arse as they are calling a lot of the girls defending her plan. I don't worship the woman or anything, think she walks on water or that her shit doesn't stink... I just think she had a great business mind to get out her eating plan to as many as girls as she could and help them on their journeys and try and get our society eating healthier. I do not believe her intentions was to scam people. If it was however, then I am ok with her taking $39 from me as I am on my way now to the lighter healthier version of me and have a wider knowledge of clean eating. I have Ashy to thank for it as it opened the door for me.  I will not disagree that the group has shed some light on bad business practices and needs to sort these out if she wants the credibility of her business to remain in tact etc HOWEVER I have only really noticed these from when the "complaint page" mentioned them not prior. Otherwise I am oblivious in my happy weightloss bubble!

I hope that what the girls are crusading for is resolved and all issues addressed and they can go back to their own health journeys and live positively. But the hatred that is being spat out of their mouths is quite alarming.  As I have said I wouldn't say they are "haters", though maybe some are who knows. But whatever they are doing, do it for the right reasons!

Anyway I wish the girls well in their cause and hopefully they can show some dignity and respect for themselves and act like ladies rather than the foul mouth kids that some are behaving like.

oh and for those curious :
Would I recommend the guidelines; Yes... Do I think the price is worth it; No...

Now back to becoming that clean eating machine!!!