What an awesome day to what the hell am I thinking!!!!!!

Saturday was an awesome day!!!! Seriously awesome. I took part in a Fundraising Boot Camp where Margie from TBL guested. Start off with the bootcamp... Bloody awesome. I loved it and loved pushing myself hard!!! oh and can I say I loved the tyre pulls. I found it a challenge to ensure every time I did it that i was running with the tyre and not just walking the bloody thing. I know that it was a charity event but I took it as a boot camp and an exercise session at that. The only thing I found hard was the Rope run and that was running with the rope in one hand above our head and then swapping hands as the pt said and then using two hands. As we headed over the bridge the cold air got me good and I felt like I had asthma big time. It was like breathing in granules. I dropped out and was a disappointed in myself but I walked fast until over the bridge and then jogged down to the lights to meet up with everyone. Took up the rope again on the way back but as soon as we hit that bridge I died. Got back into it on the other side and quite easily handled the stair sprints.... oh and Turkish getups suck big ones as does burpees lol.... But I seriously had an awesome time and it made me realise that I am struggling big time with just the gym and maybe need to start working some classes in on my cardio days.... ooh and on a quick note. I hate weights!!!! really hate them. i don't enjoy them at all!!!!!!!! maybe it is because of the bloody ridiculous show pony boys who hog the weights and stare and make you feel shit for being in there. I seriously want to say " fuck off staring at least I'm bloody working my arse off!" but I don't have the balls to do that. Toni you need to come and sort them out!

ok now moving on to Margie. What an inspirational woman. She is so friendly and down to earth and I loved meeting and working out with her! When I got a pic and autograph at the end I asked her about the mental games... Right now I struggle mentally with losing weight. Staying true to my course and not throwing in the towel. She said that I need to focus on me and do it for me before I do it for anyone else... To know that my body will do whatever my mind believes that can be done to it... Just basically not to give up on me... as I am all my body has got..So I am not giving up...

I am pleased I did it and got to meet her. Was awesome!!!!!

So you are wondering the "what the hell I am thinking" is all about?!?!?!
Well I agreed with Toni to do  Tough Mudder next year. WTF!!!! I am seriously wondering where my sanity is at. I want to do it though. I want to challenge myself physically and mentally. I want to know that I can do anything I set my mind to. I know that it is going to be crazy hard and I know that I am going to have to train my arse off to be ready... but I want this.... The only person who can tell me that I can't do this is me... And I say a big resounding piss off I can't!!!!!!  So bring it on.. Found some training guides on the Tough Mudder site so will incorporate that into my cardio training one day a week...

See how I go :-)

Woot!!!

that I finally saw how far I have come since beginning my lifestyle adjustment.
I tried on a dress that I had not been able to fit into EVER and it fits nicely.
I brought the dress off ebay 3 years ago and it was a bargain. Couldn't even get it over my boobs!!! Was such a nice dress. My friend Hayley is getting married in September and I thought I best start thinking about what I will wear... scanning cupboard.. nothing... ooh wait what do we have hear.. nah it won't fit me who am I kidding.. I debated whether to try it on as I didn't want to feel bad about myself.. Eleanor said ooh mummy try it on it is pretty. So I obliged the cherub.. I couldn't believe how easy it went over my chest and down my waist and hips!!!! So excited!!! I did a little happy dance... which Eleanor joined in without knowing what I was dancing for ha ha. She took a pic of me in it and I don't think it does it justice and I won't be posting it anywhere.

Trying the dress on has given me such a reassurance that I am on the right path and that I am slugging my guts out for something! The scales may only be showing small losses but wow trying that dress on is showing big losses!!!  It has given me the resurgence in my desire to get to my goal weight/size. To stay true to my path and I will get there. It is 100% clean eating for me from now until the wedding....and beyond of course but I am going to be very strict with myself so that I know that I have done everything needed. I will only allow myself a treat of Max Brenner hot choc whenever I go to Newcastle rather than a day or meal cheat :-) oh and before you freak out Toni it is probably only fortnightly I go if that :-)

ok so I did promise also I would post my meals. So here is today.

Breakfast
1/2 cup of oats and half a cup of Almond Milk, sprinkling of ground Cinnamon

Mid morning Snack
shake after work out and 1/2 banana. (my Protowhey shake is made on water)

Lunch
2 poached eggs, 2 large mushrooms lightly cooked in coconut oil, baby spinach and rocket, slice of Burgen Rye ( I would not normally have eggs for lunch as this would be my breakfast some days but i felt like eggs as I have had oats the last couple of days)

Arvo Snack
Pink lady apple with tablespoon of Organic Peanut Butter

Dinner
100 gms of Moroccan Chicken, mixed salad leaves, shallots, fresh beetroot, self roasted capsicum, drizzle Balsamic vinegar, tbs Ricotta dolloped on. I wish I had roasted sweet potato but none :-(

Ooh and I have to say having my breakfast at 7 before I work out at 9 has helped me immensely with hunger through the day. I had a massive cardio session today and I had a mass amount of energy. I wouldn't even say it was due to the Dfine 8 but more so that I had something in my belly upon waking.

Ooh my friend Toni stated on a previous post to have more protein in my snacks.. Ok so the peanut butter is a protein source. Is that not enough?? What other ideas for snacks steering clear of Ryvitas and other crisps type of foods due to the no/minimal carbs after 2pm??? In my nuts I am having Almonds which is a protein source. Is it that I am not having enough protein in these snacks?

In my lasagna I do use Mountain bread as the sheet in place of pasta though I tried another wrap type of bread the other day which was lower in carbs. I will be making my lasagna this week with none of that and incorporating coarsely mashed sweet potato/pumpkin and roasted eggplant into the layers.. so stay tuned for the recipe for that one.

Till next time xxx

Changes

Argh there is so many changes occurring at the moment!

We are getting prepared for our move back to Townsville....And I say prepared in the mental and physical sense.

As much as I found the first year away from family a challenge and having a newborn away from my close circle, I love it here. I am settled. I am not so homesick now. I have a great bunch of friends here. I love the area and discovering new towns and just driving through the wineries.

But now I am mentally preparing for the move back. A move to where life is comfortable and easy and cellular. It is funny when I think back 2ish years and the dread I felt about leaving and I now have that same dread. This is different though. I know that I will settle back so easily into life in Townsville and we will not venture far as per normal as Townsville is very cellular. ie everything you need is there. The beautiful Strand, decent shops, great entertainment. Life will be comfortable. I will be amongst my girls again and up to shennanigans, I'll be getting stuck into the gym and getting fit and healthy. I will thoroughly enjoy being back with my parents. But I will feel a longing for Singleton and the Hunter Valley. This has been the worst few years for us financially than it has ever been... it is a very expensive town to shop in, hence why I go to Rutherford.. 40 minutes up the road to shop... Plus there is Aldi.... oh how I will miss you Aldi.. Your cheap nappies that rival Huggies more than any brand has! Your yummy Ricotta..The weetbix that Eleanor loves more than the well known brands. But the savings are truly amazing and I hope Townsville gets one cause it will be awesome! We have the demographic there but who knows. I look forward to shopping at the markets though and trying out Sprout that everyone talks about.

Mentally I am just not ready to move back. I think also I am struggling as I know that Andrew is putting in to Core Transfer to Raeme which means a trip back down this way to Albury at some stage. I just don't know if I want to move all the way up and then prepare myself again for the angst of leaving friends and family again to move. I just want to be settled but not in Townsville.

Oh the joys of the army life!

August- NewMonth NewGoals

 

August how I welcome you into my life!  I really have had a shit July! No progress on the scales or in measurements. Sick kids and myself. No focus.. To be honest just all round crap! yep blah blah blah excuses excuses excuses...

Well it is day 10 in August and I have exercised every day this month . I have really watched my food intake. I am struggling with water and really need to get this on track. Water really is essential to weightloss. So I am making an effort to drink 2 of my bottles which is 1 litre  and one extra one of those when working out.

I feel like the old mindset is setting in and I need to break out of that. Doesn't matter how many people kick me up the bum if I can't get my focus back then no amount of butt kicking will help. I do think that having not blogged regularly has not helped either so I will do that more too. Just to keep my mind on track and vent if needed etc.

You know sometimes you get the mind where ok yep I'm feeling good about my body, feeling healthier etc etc and then you lose your way as you get comfortable. Well I am not comfortable....that is what I have to keep telling myself. I have not achieved what I want to. 15+ kgs is fabulous!!!!!!!! Don't get me wrong... But I still want to get to roughly 80kgs and a size 14, I am currently about 102kgs (yes not weighed properly in a while) and size 18 some 16. So this is no where near where I want to be!

Preparation is key so I have cut up vegies ready to make salads as quickly and easy as can be. I am planning my snacks and just trying to get back on track. I am making sure my calories are not too high and also the carb content. Trying to keep carbs to morning or lunch.

I had a great chat to my PT Annie on Tuesday and she was really good. Gave me some great advice and I have put this into action.

I am really killing it in my cardio sessions pushing between 500 and 600 calories in an hour. I am being focused in my weights sessions. I make sure my form is right and I am pushing as hard as I can.

So exercise is not my issue. I love exercise. I do it 6 days a week. Sunday is my rest day though due to the last few days of July not working out with sick kids I had to make up some time. I will be resting this weekend though.

So food. Here is my typical day. I will put the timings of my food too so if you see anything wrong let me know.

7am Breakfast- 6egg white omelet with spring onion, capsicum and mushroom. (sometimes I add a rasher of short cut bacon though not always. I may also add one whole egg)
OR Quick oats with 1/2 Cup Almond Milk- will switch to rolled oats once my plain sachets of quick oats are gone
Fish Oil tablet

830am-  take my Dfine 8 and l carnitine

9am- start either my weights program or cardio session
I drink Xtend whilst I work out

1030am- finish session with Protowhey shake and L-Glutamine
May have a banana or apple once I get home

1230/1pm- lunch. Usually the same thing though may have left overs too
100gm Chicken with Moroccan Spice, mixed lettuce leaves eg baby spinach Rocket etc, red onion, capsicum, roasted pumpkin sweet potato and beetroot, baby tomatoes, lebanese cucumber.

330pm-  handful of nuts, Brazil, Macadamia, Almond, Walnuts and cashew. All are raw not roasted or salted
OR Apple with tablespoon of Natural Organic Peanut Butter YUMMINESS if you have not tried this!
OR Protowhey Smoothie-  Scoop of Protowhey, cup Almond Milk, a couple of mixed frozen berries or 2 berry Antioxidant Smoothie Cubes, 1/2 banana and a tbs of LSA mix. Delicious!!!!!

Dinner-  this is various though these are the meals I rotate with through the week
~ Chicken Parmigiana w/ salad or green veg
~ Clean Spinach and Ricotta lasagna w/ salad or green veg (I make a big batch and then freeze slices) I have cut them smaller than a normal serve lately to cut back on the carb content.
~ Moroccan Chicken Salad same as lunch
~ Steak and Veg with clean mushroom sauce
~ Clean Lean Beef Tacos
~ Salmon or home made Salt and Pepper Calamari w/ green veg
~ Home Made Pumpkin Soup

Now in these I use only Ricotta Cheese, natural yogurt, no crumbing though maybe with Almond Meal. In the lasagna I use Mountain Bread though I have recently used Mission Rye Wraps for the lower carb content. With the tacos I don't use taco shells I place my ingredients in Cos lettuce leaves (thanks Ali for the idea) or I'll toast off some Mountain bread wraps though I have not done that in a long while.

I am trying not to count calories but I will for the next couple meals to make sure I am hitting the minimum daily target of 1200 as advised by PT. But I need to keep track of all the other nibbles too.

I don't have any desert but I may have a hot choc made with my Protowhey but this is rare.

I am looking to change my meals up a little next grocery shop for variety. So I am currently scanning FB

Oh I must say that I may have found what has been impeding me with weightloss and I think this has come from the Ashy Bines program and some confusion there. She promotes the FBW or Fat Burning Walk. Which is a fasted session upon waking. Well I don't work out straight away as I am at 9am. So suggestions were made to at least have a banana. So I was having a banana and then doing my session and then having the shake.  I think after talking with Annie and my friend Jacque that I realised this was possibly what is having the negative affect. My body was not getting any real substance until after my workout. Since Tuesday I have changed this and having breakfast no later than 7am so that it is 2 hours between my food and workout especially cardio for the fat burning effect. I feel a lot better for it. Will see in a fortnight if there is any change on the scales. I say fortnight as to allow body time to adjust and also for being smack bang in the middle of girlies!!!! There is more structure to my food timing now so that should help.

Anyway enough from me as I have a house to clean. a shower to be had and some fun with my little cherub...

Any suggestions ladies please shoot them at me as I am happy to hear any :-)

until next time ...